Premature Ovarian Failure..... no.... Premature Ovarian Insufficiency.: Gratitude

Thursday, May 23, 2013

Gratitude

Today, I choose to be grateful for all the Blessings in my life.
I am Blessed with a wonderful hubby, very supportive.
I am Blessed with a happy, peaceful home.
I am Blessed with a wonderful family.
I am Blessed with a great career.
...So, the list is endless... and I realize that I do not deserve any of them, but I have been granted chances over chances to do over, to live my life in a more joyful and grateful mentality.

I am a believer. He who knows all my fears, transgressions, and innermost desires has chosen to love me, just as I am.

2 comments:

Team HarriesJuly 22, 2013 at 1:14 PM
Our acupuncturist says the same thing, only room temp drinks and food! So no, we actually drink it with room temp water, maca powder and wheat grass....

PS you are a no reply blogger, so this was the only way to get a hold of you! Couldn't find your email!

Love your list of blessings!
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TTC Journey

Sept 20th 2013 - Start Progestrone today. I have been in a fugue last 4 days.
Sept 16th 2013 - Despite daily shots, follies are not growing one bit. Three on L ovary (3, 3, 4 mm) and 2 on R ovary (2 mm and 5 mm). Estradiol >25. Lining 9.6. Stop shots and start Progestrone and expect AF in a week or so.
Sept 9th 2013 - Appointment with RE after 2 weeks of Estrogen 150 mcg/day. Estradiol >26, FSH 2.6, lining 8.4. AFC x2 on left (2mm, 3mm), x1 on right (4mm). Start Follistim 225mg Daily sub Q.
August 2013 - Estrogen is helping, hot flashes much better, sleep is much improved (although not as good as I used to have it). Had to induce AF with progesterone pills. Fake flow shows up at CD 46. yikes. The estrogen patches are irritating to my skin but I love the mood and temp regulation. I see the RE, antra-follie count= 2; one on each side. Decide to try a medicated cycle after expressing my disappointment with service to the RE. She is willing to go at it. Aug 26th - I start high dose Ethynl Estradiol. RTC in 2 weeks.
July 2013 - Decide to go forth with IUI #1. It is a burst. I did not ovulate despite temp shift, ovulation pain, positive OPK and fluid in my ovary. What a waste of time, money and emotions! I want to go on Estrogen because the hot flashes are getting out of hand. Having trouble at work and with sleep. Start Estrogen patches. 40 bucks/month/rx.
May - June 2013 - ovulating but antra-follie count/ size is disappointing to say the least.
April 2013 - I meet the RE. She is very thorough and hopeful since I am still ovulating. Ultrasound (follie count) does not look good. Complete nmultiple labs; all negative except high FSH and undetectable AMH
March 2013 - FSH goes back up to 48. It is time to see a RE. I am panicking. I make an appointment which takes a month to get in...uuurgh!
Feb 2013 - FSH goes down to 5! yes! I think I am cured but continue to go to accupuncture. No pregnancy though:(
Jan 2013 - I start accupuncture which really helps the hot flashes. I am hopeful.
Nov 2012-Dec 2012 - I am unravelling and a raging mess. I am mad, sad, unbearable to live with (poor hubs). The holidays take over, we go home to see my family. I am a sulky mess the whole time. My family is concerned.
Oct 2012 - She refers me to the RE but I think this is a mistake and is due to hormal imbalance from the IUD. I start doing research on POI/POF.She advises us to start TTC now! I am still in shock and ambivalent.
Sept 2012 - Yikes... FSH has only gone down 10 points and is still crazy high. GYN says that I am menopausal. What?
August 2012 - FSH still elevated. I think the IUD is causing these problems. I want it out ASAP which GYN dutifully takes it out. Decides to recheck levels a month later.
July 2012 - GYN is worried about high FSH. She wants it re-checked
June - July 2012 - I am having some crazy hot flashes! Initially thought it was due to a drastic change in weather and stress but decide to get checked out.
May 2012 - We both move to a new area together! Finally, yay!
Dec 2011 - We get married but live in different states:(
May 2011 - He pops the question!
March 2010 - We meet