Monday, August 19, 2013
All things fake
Last week I had my fake AF and even after 46 days of waiting, I was not excited to see it coz it felt soo.... well.. fake! I felt like I had passed an exam after cheating all the way. I am worried that this is the new normal for me but what to do. It's beyond my control and I have to keep reminding myself this much.
My body has really been doing a fantastic job at fooling me and messing with my head. To add the icing on the fake flo cake, I had an LH surge (positive OPK) and temp drop on CD 5. Then of course it was a neg after that. Just lovely but poor hubs had to get on gross BD "just incase". I mean, we both know that is one of those fake LH surges like we had in July but hope is something tough:) I am scheduled to go in for an U/S next week but I am not too hopeful coz my RE does not want me on meds so the only option she is giving me at this point in unmedicated IUI or try naturally. To me, this sounds like a complete waste of my time but I keep going back.
I need a better RE that is fighting for this cause, at least that is how I feel. I like her proximity from my job coz then I can just walk there for an hour then come back to work without taking time off for the many appts. Anyone know of a good RE in the Bay area? I am in PA.
I have also been wondering about HRT. I am on the patch and it is annoying and irritating on my skin to say the least. I am thinking oral HRT would be better for me. Anyone with better suggestions on what has worked for you?
This weekend was great hanging out with hubs all the way. I had to shrug the girlfriends off and pay attention to my number one fan:) We also did an outside professional photo shoot just cause:) I hope the pics look good! I love this man of mine:)