Monday, August 19, 2013
All things fake
Last week I had my fake AF and even after 46 days of waiting, I was not excited to see it coz it felt soo.... well.. fake! I felt like I had passed an exam after cheating all the way. I am worried that this is the new normal for me but what to do. It's beyond my control and I have to keep reminding myself this much.
My body has really been doing a fantastic job at fooling me and messing with my head. To add the icing on the fake flo cake, I had an LH surge (positive OPK) and temp drop on CD 5. Then of course it was a neg after that. Just lovely but poor hubs had to get on gross BD "just incase". I mean, we both know that is one of those fake LH surges like we had in July but hope is something tough:) I am scheduled to go in for an U/S next week but I am not too hopeful coz my RE does not want me on meds so the only option she is giving me at this point in unmedicated IUI or try naturally. To me, this sounds like a complete waste of my time but I keep going back.
I need a better RE that is fighting for this cause, at least that is how I feel. I like her proximity from my job coz then I can just walk there for an hour then come back to work without taking time off for the many appts. Anyone know of a good RE in the Bay area? I am in PA.
I have also been wondering about HRT. I am on the patch and it is annoying and irritating on my skin to say the least. I am thinking oral HRT would be better for me. Anyone with better suggestions on what has worked for you?
This weekend was great hanging out with hubs all the way. I had to shrug the girlfriends off and pay attention to my number one fan:) We also did an outside professional photo shoot just cause:) I hope the pics look good! I love this man of mine:)
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Hope you are able to find a good Ra!
ReplyDeleteThanks! I am working on it:)
DeleteHi from ICLW...why does your RE not want you on meds? Maybe its time to find a new RE
ReplyDeleteShe says that my body is already producing the FSH in the meds. The more I read about people's exp, the more I realize I am not well served:(
DeleteGreetings from ICLW! I reccomend premphase. It is a pill and I feel great on it. But the patch does have a lower risk of blood clots!
ReplyDeleteThanks! I will look it up and possibly switch. I hope the price is better than the current patch (I am using 40 bucks/month)?
Deletealso, why does the RE not want you on meds? How high is your FSH and AHM? If they are already super high, the drugs will simply likely not have an impact and your doc does not want you to waste money. My doctor let me waste money ($2,000) on one super high dose cycle of injectable menopur. It cost a lot and my body did not respond at all, but it was still good closure for me to realize that my eggs were not going to develop.
ReplyDeleteYes dear, my FSH is high (40) and AMH is in the tank (>0.16). That could very well be it, but this leads to the question of giving up? Does it mean that there is no hope for me? I would rather try and say I did than just resign all together.
DeleteHi from ICLW. I have POF/POI and have had it since I was a teenager. I can relate to your post. Every time a doctor asks me the date of my last cycle I feel like a fake - it's not really a cycle, more of an induced bleed. Once of these days I'm going to answer "1992".
ReplyDeleteAs for LH - I've had a false positive on a pregnancy test from an LH surge. Now I know better than to trust a urine pregnancy test, even one administered by a doctor.
When I am not cycling or beast feeding I use the estrogen patches (1mg - 2/wk) continuously and provera (5mg for 5 days) at the beginning of the month.
Thanks Lara,
DeleteI think you should throw someone off just for kicks! I can imagine the face:) Esp a resident or student who is still trying to learn the ropes:)
I cannot imagine a pos preggo test. That is a mean one.
I take your skin does not get irritated by the patches? I am not liking mine too much.
I confess, I am having a hard time with all the abbreviations, but just love the way you write about your husband. True love <3 Hugs form an ICLWer!
ReplyDeleteSo sorry about that! I should not assume that everyone reading this is well-aware of the infertility world lingo!
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